Lisa
My condolences go out to you for your loss. When we lose a loved one in death we can't help but feel an unbearable pain. What has given me comfort during these times is Gods word the Bible. A scripture that I had in mind is at Psalm 37:29 where Jehovah God promises us, "The righteous themselves will possess the earth, and they will reside forever upon it." Another one is at Romans 6:23 which says, " The wages sin pays is death, but the gift God gives is everlasting life." I hope these comfort you as well.
Lisa